Monday, July 13, 2009

COMING OUT OF THE CLOSET

The time has come for me to finally "fess up." I am not who you think I am. Three months ago when I started on this blogging journey,I never expected that I would stick with it let alone generate a small following. Who knew there would be someone out there willing to read my shit. My fictitious name, "Marjean", was created out of fear and insecurity. I was afraid of rejection and insecure in my ability to come up with something worthy of a readership. "Marjean" provided some anonymity... a blanket against ridicule for my blogging efforts. In my mind, they would not be laughing at me, but some crazy old woman named Marjean.

I found that as my followers list started to grow, so too had my confidence. The wonderful comments to my post had given me the encouragement to continue on with something that started as a whim. My fear of rejection slowly faded...like a fart in the wind, and I found myself considering using my real name to take ownership of my blog. The pivocal moment came on the weekend, when my daughter said to me, "Mom, I would read your blog even if you weren't my Mom."

So here I am, "Marisa", fresh out of the closet and I feel free, liberated...the world is my oyster and I am a blogger!

You can read my blog if you want...or not...laugh if you want...or not...leave comments if you want...or not, and I will not feel rejected.

"I is what I is!"

10 comments:

  1. Hi Marisa.
    I love reading your blog, regardless of your name. And will continue to read it. :)

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  2. Welcome to the crazy world of blogging (again) Marisa. I'm so glad you came out of the closet! :)

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  3. What a beautiful name. Nice to meet you, Marisa (again). I'm still new to your blog, but, simply put, I love it!! Be proud and have a beautiful day.

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  4. Why, hello there Marisa - so lovely to *meet* you...(again)!

    "A rose, by any other name, would smell as sweet..."

    I'd best go and adjust my Sisterhood blogroll...this was a very Purple Bike thing for you to do....once again, can I say that you rock?

    xo

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  5. Mom, as you know, I've had another blog or 2 in the past, but my current one is the first time I've ever used my real name and posted pictures of myself. I still find that scary sometimes--why? Am I afraid that someone who used to tease me in school will find my blog and laugh at me yet again? Well, so what if they do. I really shouldn't care. We can only be ourselves. I like that we our stepping outside of our comfort zones at the same time!

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  6. wow, how inspiring! :) i still remain in the comfort of anonymity. but each day my confidence grows. nice to *meet* you, marisa!

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  7. Welcome to blogging Marisa :)

    It's wonderful that you have decided to no longer give Marjean the credit for your work.
    It wonderful that you have to confidence to not care about the people that just skip by and not take the time to read what you write. It's wonderful that you have accepted yourself and understand we can please everyone.

    I remember when I started blogging, I didn't know where to start and it took something like 3 months to get my first comment on my blog. Those first comments gave me courage to go into the blogging world and make great friends.

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  8. Yay! So happy for you that you've come out of the closet :) It is libertaing isn't it, wen you realise you have nothing to hide in revelaing your real self, because it's you, it's who you are, and at the end of the day, we are each a drop in the ocean. Of course we will never please evryone with who we are or what we write, but if we can do it honestly and openly for ourselves, that's something. So, congratulations for coming out of the closet and feeling strong to be who you are :)

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  9. Thank you for your kind comment on my blog! It's nice to know one is not alone. :)

    How wonderful that you have come out of the closet and walked into the light!

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  10. Congrats to you for coming out and for having the courage to be yourself! I enjoyed "reading your shit." Check out mine if you so desire. : )

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